28

I exist in this world for 28 years already. 

THANK YOU LORD FOR THE GIFT OF LIFE! That was fast, it has been decades. Time flies really fast, it seems like it was just yesterday since I started my journey and now I am already 28.

I will admit that at this point of my life, I really feel unsatisfied, not because I am not yet getting and achieving my life-long goals but it seems that there’s something missing. I am 28 years old but I really can not live up to the title. I am childish and immature and those 28 year-old people that I know are really far from what I am today. There are all successful in their own ways and makes a name in their fields of interest. I know my time will come, I just have to wait. Anyways, I can almost see the finish line approaching. But there are really those times that the idea of jealousy and being envious ignites inside of me.

I know it is really immature to think of such things, I am being shallow-minded of interpreting and accepting the gift of life that our Father, is giving to me unselfishly.

I am eternally grateful for all the blessings that He has given me that makes me appreciate a good life, for the upheavals and trials he gave on me which made me stronger and helped me realized the idea of life’s bitter sweet reality and most of all for the love which is supported by guidance and protection which he unconditionally gives through my ever beloved family and friends.

Age is just a number and young is an attitude, as what the ad says. I want to believe in such thing because I think I am not suited for my age. I can not feel that I am a 28 old lass who has a responsibility of giving my family a good life which they are expected of me since I am the "ilaw ng tahanan", of helping them raised our family and of being a good daughter in every single and possible way that I could. I know it’s very cliche, the idea of being the one to give the anticipated success in life that your family is counting and holding on. I am in the long and life-time process of learning. I have to know why I am here and what is my purpose. It wouldn’t be easy, I know there are lots of people, who, until now, eventhough they’re old enough, still, couldn’t know what their real purpose is.

I am very positive that everything will be okay. Now that I am no longer a teenager, a sad reality that I really need to accept though it doesn’t still sink in up to this point, I have to act my age. Yikes! I feel old. Highly exaggerated but I do.

 I am proud that I have reached this age because not everyone gets this chance to reach such age. Again, thank you Lord. Praises and cheer!

Live life to the fullest!!!